So I am trying to Evolve…
So I am trying to Evolve,
but something internal won’t let me.
Doesn’t yet want to set me on my perfectly perplex path through life.
Ripen my underlying need to please my unfed seeds,
see my sentence and masterfully march towards my goal
so I know, I know where to go.
But a foul proof plan is not part of my definition
instead it dictions: this way, or that?
tit for tat?
To be or not to be, that is indeed the question
I keep trying, to resolve.
Evolve from just an idea, an interest,
a taste of a fantastical future.
I skim instead of dive into possibility gathering brief impressions
before picking at the next probable puddle,
gulps away from its pit.
Interests a plenty,
so many in fact that choosing seems a loosing cause.
My greed for speed and need to be the
best, best, bestest
barricades my focus to fixate fact
from its frivolous fiction
depict where I will thrive and be driven to
I know that choosing is key and that trying is for free,
that any path requires patience, determination and sense.
But what if I just don’t hence that overplayed virtuous nonsense
nor believe that ‘only time will tell’
Time is of the essence so I demand time to tell me now!
Tell me somehow what to follow
Tell me where my true talent flows
Tell me how to find my personal, packaged happiness
Tell me which way will lead me to success
Tell me how to evolve from this livid living limbo which lacks in appeal.
Please DO tell time without taking time, my ticking time away from me.
Every tick I grow older,
Every tock I inch further from my undefined future.
This unrequested waiting withers my insides by the second.
See I prefer not to be fifty if and when I find my face.
So make it take shape now while I can still claim and retain my youth.
Forgive me time for being rash
Forgive me time for this constant tongue-lash
Please understand time, that I am trying to evolve from this prolonged mishmashed trash
and find something with…panache.
I don’t care if you crash me into my evolution
or flash me towards its door.
As long as dear time,
you please, please, please,
help me find